love me

Can you love me like cliff loved claire? Do you think of me when I'm right there and miss me when we're apart? DOes it make you angry to picture me being introduced as someone else's ol' lady? Would you cry for me if anything ever happened? What about on our wedding day, will your eyes fill with tears of joy and love for our union for etnerity? Do you crave me like i crave the taste of your flesh against the top of my mouth. That day you showed me your heart was the day mine went from broken to healed on the spot/ You cant describe to me in words how are the only one God made for me. The journey I have made in my life to find you was well worth it tho you'll be the last cancer my heart will ever know.

pretty girls in the trap

They say all the pretty girls love the trap the life the money its all so fast pretty girl in the trap slow down this life don't last cuz the pretty girl in the trap always falls in love with the dope more than she will ever love the dope boy eventually the only way she will ever see herself clearly is when the pretty girl in the trap has a bowl to her lips or a rig to her skin the prettiest girls always got the worst habits and the saddest stories The pretty girls love the trap cuz they can erase the real them and become that pretty bitch that everybody envies pretty girls in the trap are constantly running a race to try to cure the pain but no amount of dope will ever make her heart unbreak The stories that the pretty girls in the trap tell some are the truth but most are lies to cover up the real them they are trying to hide; that's why we are looked at so hard by the outside eyes but really were just scared lil girls with tears in our eyes because we know what happens when daddy comes in the bed with us when mommy isnt here the pretty girls never grow from that trauma instead they just bottled it up and keep letting life fuck them over and over again pretty girls in the trap she gets so high, she nods out with a smile and lets the fent numb them from all the pains they cant make go away Its a way to forget everything the world has thrown in her path it hurts too much so the pretty girl gets high to stop remembering certain things that made us be who we be line after line turns into glass bowls fill with dope smoke that we roll because we have lost all hope but the smoke stops being enough to stop the anger the frustrations and the why's that we constantly contemplate the bowl turns int a rig puncturing her skin there she is a pretty girl pronouced dead from an overdose on fent and herion the pretty girl veins filled with dope is finally free from the chains that held her down now she is a caged bird who has been set free RIP MARANDA PACE I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

anti personality in disorder

See you may think that I am a bitch with a face thats always looking serious i never have a smile im forever frowing but what I see is a woman who is tired from years of torment and abuse who is sick of being mistreated and used if i walk around like i hate you then it wont be hard for you to figure out that i dont want you to intertwine yourself in my web of bullshit and lies that i created to keep myself out of the way because just like everyone else you are only in my life to hurt me mentaly i am drained i wish everyday these feeelings would go away i hate being frustated sad stressed and lonely but i love my solitude the feeling is my only joy sometimes in this fucked up world my identity is unknown even to me i cant tell you how many times a day i split into another version of my complex personality happiness is a feeling i dont know the meaning of but from this point on it is a feeling that i want to never stop im just an antisocial butterfly who is about to clip her wings

crazy

back and forth my mind going 1000 ways I don’t know who I am no more its like I am 4 people to your one I hear thte voices they call out for me all the time but I can never see them just hear them in the distance repeating my name like a constant nag So many times I think I should have just took the rope and tied a belt in a loop around the shower and kicked the bucket from under my feet cuz living each day like this is making me wish I never had to breathe again This earth is my hell and my temple is me I am the only one that sees im truly the goddess and you arent meant to be anything to me Ah my head it’s another split Then I snap out of it and back into a cloudy and dazed reality I cant take it no more Shadow peope fuckin with me playinn hide and seek I think ima take them down to the creek The water is shallow but it willl do I think this the night I end my life and yours too I hate everything about this nut you are the sacrafice to me a life with battling all these multtiple personaonlites that love everything in this world that is addicting. Please just let me let the demons go they can have my soul I dont need it I just needed lto be a caged bird freed along time ago

the switch

damn im sitting here tears fillin up my eyes i cant believe that cold day in hell finally arrived i begged you to stay but you just kept walking away i didnt think all of the lies would catch up with me but here i am the one with one more lie between clintched teeth Im sorry ….. thats gonna be the phrase that haunts you forever cuz its the only thing i could really say but see the manipulating me was right there ready to start her bullshit just with a new victim a new scene a new face same heart that can easily break I keep taking these good men and making them into the monster i see when i look into the mirror a good man is gone and the damage i caused will live with you through the next relationship or two beyond the faintly faded memories of me and you i wish you hadnt been so weak i took you for everything even tho you got tired and left me the damage i did tho that will be a lifelong thing that goes from breakup anger to a characteristic of your personaility see i told you eventually i will turn you in to everything you hate id turn you into me and the next girl in your life will have to deal with the bullshit that i made

love or drugs

Love or drugs march 1st 2023 milan Faded As We Lay high in the sky call out your name but you're no reply I run as fast as my body can go but I Feel So weightless like I've lost all control Where are you my love please don't go I can't it will cause me to give up on everything but then I wake up and I see that smile that I've Loved for so many years and I say to you it's either love or the drugs cuz the dope seems to be seems to be breaking out bond in every single way and I cried every single day I hate the day that you make Fentanyl I wish we could go back to the day before it happened because our lives would be so different but I fell in love with you and we fell in love with the drugs so I say this is my love it's either our love or the drugs The nightmare finding you needle in your arm has become something only feared into reality I wish I could escape But addicts we are you're the one battling so much more pain that the only the Euphoria of Fentanyl seems to erase Is scary is scary to see how we've gone from being on top to not having shit not even enough for our daily ball l but I stuck with you through it all The good days and the bad days we've gone through through sickness withdrawals and relapses and survived it all But I know that once all the Smoke Clears our love was never stronger than the drugs and that would be our downfall Again my love I wish you love me as much as you love fentanyl so I asked you this it's either our love or the drugs Lying in the bathroom floor I find you turning cold and blue and this is the moment that I knew The day I found you dead from an overdose was the day I lost my heart my soul and my best friend I wish you would have picked our love but I guess you picked What you loved most of all