the beginning

The Truth Let me tell it See this here is the truth about me and you or you and I, whichever is the grammatically correct way to represent the us we have become you are my stars my moon and I am the Goddess of the night but when you look at me I turn into the Sun beaming from ear to ear with rays of light I cant imagine what my world would be like without you cuz up til you found me on badu my world was so dark and unhappy i was always so fuckin miserable because your soul was searching and my soul was trying to run away from anything that had to do with love cuz love had blinded me and made me feel like I am less of the Goddess I know our creators especially blended together from broken plaster and thats why I am a broken woman until valentines day the year was 2023 and I had never thought another person's confusing text would have lead me to the inbox of the one i refuse to ever ever be without again its like the first time my energy and yours intertwined the plaster's cracks began to smooth themselves out I can see so much hurt and pain in your eyes and it kills me that anyone would ever cause you any pain but can you just let me love you and the damage will soon heal the wounds you never thought could be sealed you complete so many of the missing pieces of my life i know now that everything we have experienced has lead us to be so scared to love again but for that reason our hearts are unseperable i love you for so many reasons i dont think i have enough memory on my laptop to begin to tell you i love you because you love me just as i am and i love you because you are the perfect man i hope my next son grows up and wants to be ive never had someone do the things you do for me and if you ever leave me i know i will lose the biggest part of me and that scares the fuck out of me Cash on my mama n dem you know my kids n granny We will have a thousand more fights, a billion more kisses, a trillion more i love you's and makeups and breakups and prenups cuz baby i believe in you and i know you gonna be on food network one day so fine so talented and so famous this shit aint no joke you my husband you my soul mate and the reason i finally am whole not shattered with abusive post tramatic memories can you let me love every part of you i want you and i to be in this not just together but for eternity cuz i still see you with my hand in yours as we cross into the next journey i dont deserve you i think you deserve the world that you give me unselfishly you are taking a spoied princess and turning her into a queen I love you my Daddy Nugget, my Cash, my Mike C never think different never doubt us and never think that i dont love you for you fuck all that other shit you are my baby fr and i thnk me without you would probably end up killing me I can tell how you look at me that you really do love me so i really wrote all this to say thank you i appreciate everything you have done and will ever do for me its means so much more thna i think you will ever know