spun

what do you do when the drugs you do aren't getting you lit anymore they are barely covering the war wounds you were trying to cover thats why you started using in the first place everything you wanted to hide from the past seems to be slowly creepin up and no longer are faded memories but a vivid picture of your reality The crash out seems to be the best been up for 4 days tweakin youve spun out of control which is rare cuz you usually dont tap out unless youve been awake for at least 2 weeks You look in the mirror hair ecverywhere bags under your eyes mascara smeared from the tears you' re standing there looking at a demon who for so many years you tried to bury but knew one of these would reappear so you're spun out don't know which way to go you hold the gun to your head but cannot seem to pull the trigger cuz you are really scared to meet the reaper you fall on your knees asking god to heal you from all the pain you suffer but you know God aint listening because all the other times you didnt take heed now you're lost you take the rig and break it in half swearing you will never chase the rabbit down the hole again cuz its no wonderland where dope takes you If you or someone you love is suffering from addiction in any of its many forms seek or encourage them to seek treatment. You are not alone!