the day before my birthday

Why do you hate me so much or make me feel like you hate me. Like I'm not over none of the shit that happened at the end like I'm not. You have had two relationships to my none after we broke up and it's like why can't we fix what was wrong and move on and be happy like why are other bitches getting the parts of you that I hold on to. I wasn't bad to you and I feel like you loved me a lot and you still might do a little bit I dunno but you just are so mean to me to try to push me away or something I dunno but like I ain't never felt like I have about nobody else like you showed me something different during the majority of our relationship and like I guess in a way I never made you feel i appreciated you but I do I always have and I have needed you since the day you came in my life and we had a vibe that was one of a kind. I hate this everyday without you has been hell like on some real shit I make so much money and buy shit every day to fill a void I guess but I should be sharing this with you like you really was there when I was still new to this but now I'm really getting money it's like none of it matters cuz we ain't getting money together like we was this was supposed to be be our come up but I guess I'll never get none of that back I just need to let it go cuz I fucked our relationship up and you refuse to let me fix it and I hate that hurt. Knowing you happy with someone else kills me. I get niggas try every day to get to know me and all that shit and I won't let nobody in. I know you not gonna talk to me or come now but I just had to get this shit off my chest I'm sitting here the day before my birthday in tears because there's one thing I can't get in this world that would make me happy again but no matter what I'll never turn my back on you no matter what do you can always come wherever I'm at I'll always help you get on your feet and have somewhere for you to lay your head regardless of everything. I wish we had fought for our relationship to last but ain't nothing else I can do to get you to try again with me so it is what it is. I love you daddy nugget and that's just from my heart you always gonna be a special person I had in my life.